Thursday, October 14, 2010

"I'm Inside-Out!"--Thomas.

Today, I've been doing some thinking.  I've been totally to the max stressed out this last couple of weeks.  I mean, I know it's ridiculous, but I've really spent ZERO time at home that could have been spent the library.  I rewarded myself by coming home at 11:30 twice in the past two week.  That is completely ridiculous and I know it.  I'm so caught up in all this schoolwork that has to get done and completely forgetting to take time for myself.  Actually, that's sort of a lie.  Blogging is definitely time for myself.  Other than that, I've been living here, in the library.

I need to remember not to forget about myself.  I'm on the verge of complete exhaustion and finding myself getting into that rut of "If I can just make it to Sunday, then things will be more calm".  That's not the way to look at it. My sister-in-law, Mykel (oh, what's up. shout out.) told me about how she was having those exact thoughts when she saw a sign that had a quote from Gandhi that said "Life isn't about increasing its speed".  I've been thinking about that a lot lately.  Appreciate the here and now.  Look for the positive things in life instead of dwelling on the things that aren't so great. When we get to that all-to-distant Sunday, we may realize that life is just as stressful.  So make every day the best day.  Yes, I may be at the library all the time, but at least I have a library to go to.  I am so grateful for the fact that I can be here at this school ("Best school eva!!"--Smokey the Bear) and that I am surrounded by so, so, so many awesome people that are incredible examples to me each and every day.

I need to get outside of myself.  I need to stop focusing on my problems and look for the people who have problems that are much more difficult than mine. What can I do to help others? What can I do to make myself a better person, on the inside?

For the record, my journal responses always stray or are not even related to the actual prompt. My bad.

This post kind of ended up being a bit of a run-on about nonsense.  My sincerest apologies.


Matt said...

oh stacy, i enjoyed this one. i agree with you. you should take time for yourself, and for yourself, i mean with me. hope to see you tomorrow! times up!

Keisha Hendricks said...

i needed this.. thanks!

Matt & Mykel said...

Woot Woot! Love the shout out Stacy...I feel the love. I'll have you know, that that Ghandi quote made Pres. Uchtdorf's Saturday morning conference address! Yep... not only is it on the Thanksgiving point billboard, a pillow Tara made me, and my blog...It's scripture now baby! Just remember you're totally worth a time out. Plus, as hard as it is (WAY hard for me!) enjoy where ever your at... If I'm busy, I want more free time...When I have free time...I don't feel as accomplishing and I crave business...I really think there's something to that whole grass is greener on the other side deal. Maybe I just gotta learn to love whatever grass is in front of me!? Love you! And I PROMISE I am calling you back on Tuesday! The Balle fam departs tomorrow night.